We planted some okra seeds on May 14th. It took them about 10 days to sprout. Now the cute babies have been growing well in a paper coffee cup. Maybe we will replant them to the backyard garden.
We reinforced our vegetable garden. We added 2 bags of garden soil. We also installed 4 extra wooden boards to secure the fence. Now our garden looks much better and is ready for growing summer vegetables.
I attended the Higher-self workshop at 3:30 a.m. There were19 students attended.
We did two guided meditations.
The first one was a short one of 10-minute long. Beforehand the meditation, the instructor told us to write down any negative feelings or events we want to let go. In the meditation we were guided to fire ceremony at Japanese temple and burn all the items in the list that we just wrote.
My lists were as follows.
Fear to humans — I don’t want to be watched or heard. I don’t want to get involved with people.
Fear to be criticized or judged — I have been writing a memoir and completed a picture book, but I am not planning to publish yet because of the fear.
Fear to be famous — If I become famous, my family might be involved in a danger.
Not confident in my appearance – I don’t have confidence in my face and appearance in public.
During the mediation, an owl came. I didn’t feel any specific message from the owl. The owl just presented there for me and watched me quietly.
The second meditation was a 25-minute long. My guide spirit appeared in golden light. I could not see the figure. I felt female energy.
She said I am very unique and born with many unique spiritual gifts. She said I should be proud of it. She encouraged me to have courage and show my unique spiritual gifts to many people. When I have confidence in myself, beauty comes from inside to out. People will notice the beauty coming inside of me. She said there are people who are waiting to find me. Unless I go out and show myself, they cannot find me. They will be saved and inspired by my books and words, and my existence. She emphasized me the importance of my publishing books. I noticed the owl from the first meditation was still there with my guide spirit.
At the class, I could not ask the instructor the meaning of an owl’s visit in my mediation. So, after the class I looked it up in the Internet and found the information like this.
An owl’s visit in mediation can mean a great change will come into your life. An owls represents transition and will guide you during difficult times in your life.
These messages make sense to me. I enjoyed this instructor’s class as always. I like her guided meditation.
A weird event happened to all of my family during the past two days. Two days ago my daughter and I encountered a crazy driver who made a sharp and sudden turn in a high speed in our peaceful neighborhood. We were very close to get involved in an accident. Yesterday my husband encountered a similar event. When he was making a right turn to our neighborhood area from the freeway, one car in the faster abruptly cut him in and made a right turn in front of him. He needed to jam on the brakes. He was very close to get involved in an accident.
Now I know the reasons. We were about to have Super Full moon at 4:13 a.m. of May 26th in our area. From my personal experiences, right before Full Moon people tend to have aberrant behaviors. I am glad that we were well protected by our family spirits. We will keep being alert on the days before full moon.
Since May 6th, I have been studying Navajo language with the help of Navajo YouTuber. He started posting the video clips since 2011 and his videos have been accumulated to 358 video clips. I watched them little by little every day, taking a note and practicing the pronunciations. Today I finally finished watching all of his video clips.
In 2013 he posted a Vlog and announced he just had an audition of Navajo language voiceover for Star Wars. After this Vlog, he never mentioned about the audition, but he actually won a role of Luke Skywalker. I was very happy for him even though I don’t know him in person.
Back in 2013 my dad-in-law gifted us a DVD of the Star Wars dubbed in Navajo. I never watched the DVD at that time. Today I finally watched it. I was in awe that all the Navajo actors and actresses did a great job. I was happy that I could understand many Navajo words and sentences this time.
Today was the last day of the school for my daughter. She made a great deal of academic progress with the help of homeschooling. Nowadays she has started thinking about going back to the local public school. I had stayed almost all the time with my daughter since last March due to Covid-19. It might be good to get back to our original routine that she goes to the in-person school this year. In either way we will my husband and I will honor her wish and support her.
In the early afternoon my daughter and I went for our routine walk in the neighborhood. A white sedan car entered in to the residence area from the highway in a high speed and made a sharp turn to our direction. It was so scary. We were very close to get hit by the car. If we were at the point several seconds before, we would have hit as it didn’t have any seconds for us to avoid it. I was frightened. Even after we got back to walking, my heart had been beating very fast for a while.
The driver put on the brake and rolled down the passenger side window, and asked if we were okay or not. The driver was a young male Caucasian. He didn’t look like being drunk or whacked. Instead, he seemed pretty normal state. Maybe he was just out of mind or something for speeding and making a sharp turn like that.
Right after the incident happened, I thanked to my family spirits for protecting us. I still have many to-do-list items in this lifetime. I want to stay being safe and healthy to finish all of the list items.
I consider this incident as a reminder that I should be alert all the time even in our safe neighborhood area. I should keep my vibration high all the time to protect myself and my loved ones.
From today my husband has gone back to the daytime work shift. We all woke up early in the morning and started the day with the Sun. It is good for all of us. I thank his supervisor to make efforts for my husband to switch the work shift.
It was great to have him at home in the evening and night. For the previous 6 months I added my new routine in the night; I would pray for his safely returning home before I went to bed. I can get back to original routine from today.
Today was my input day. I studied Navajo language and watched the TED talk and learned from the speakers.
One of the TED speaker offered an impressive story. He is a doctor and has had opportunities to hear from dying people. He concluded that the dying people are getting weak physically but getting vibrantly active and healthy mentally and spiritually. The dying people often talk about their already passed away family members and loved ones waiting for them close to them.
It is really true that luckily I witnessed it through my late mom. Thank you mom for showing your transition back to the spirit world. She looked sick physically, but looked very happy mentally and spiritually. I often went to check on her while she was asleep in her bed. Every time while she was asleep, she was putting a big smile in her face. I knew she was discussing on how she would travel back to the spirit world. I knew at the moment her soul departed her physical body, her family spirits were there waiting for her and picking her up.
And I know when my time has come, my mom will be there with my family spirits, waiting and picking me up back to the spirit world.
My family and I visited a zoo in the morning. The visitors need to purchase an online ticket beforehand and they have a reserved time frame so as to reduce the number of the visitors. We selected the earliest time hoping there would not be so many people, but there were a whole bunch of people walking around. I miss the zoo in Navajoland where is always peaceful and quiet, hardly not many visitors. I feel sick by surrounded by a crowd of people. At least I was happy that my daughter and husband enjoyed the visit very much.
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In the afternoon, I watched an old black and white movie Navajo (1952). I like this movie because it has many spiritual aspects. It shows how Navajo people traditionally think of physical death. The Grandpa tells the young boy that physical death is nothing, because we are originally spirits and we exist forever and everywhere. The main character; the young Navajo boy can listen to the messages from winds. He can sense the other humans’ existence in a far distance. I enjoyed seeing some familiar landscapes in Canyon de Chelly National Monument.
I attended the three-day Oracle webinar presented by Denise Linn. Today was the final day.
During the guided mediation, she pulled three cards for the audience. And she asked the audience to close eyes and ask about the personal messages for each card. Same as yesterday, I asked my family spirits to give me any messages about our visiting Navajoland for 10 days in next month.
The first card she pulled was “Acceptance.” The card shows a Native woman looking at stars in the night sky. I thought of the sky in Navajoland. We can see stars much more clearly there because there is no much housing lights and the air is clear. It reminds me how much I loved looking at stars while I was still single and visiting their land. I used to talk to the stars in my mind.
The second card she pulled was “Family.” The card shows three wolves in the snowy night. I laughed at the coincidence. Now we are a family of three. I took this as a message that this time everything will turn out great because I have my precious family with me.
The third card she pulled was “Retreat.” The card shows a cabin in the woods. I took this message as is. I will go there to relax, refresh, and heal myself.
I pulled three cards on my own. Interestingly, I pulled two same cards that I pulled yesterday, and one card was the same one that my daughter pulled yesterday.
The three cards were Owl Medicine, Wounded Healer, and Nature Spirits.
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