After the disaster of food poison of last night, I somewhat could have a good sleep. I woke up okay. I still felt an abdominal cramping all through day, but it was much better than last night, thankfully.

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This morning I did my forth colon hydrotherapy at home. For the previous three therapies, I used simple warm water, but this time I used coffee for cleansing. I found out I like using simple warm water better than coffee. I could smell coffee from my body all day long.

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Today’s dream: I was with my husband, daughter, and my in-laws. We were in the fifth floored room of a high-rise condominium building. We all experienced a big earthquake. I actually felt the shake. But we as well as the building were all safe. I woke up feeling refreshed and comfortable.

According to the dream interpretation dictionary, this dream was good. We will experience some changes but we will be okay. Considering our current situation of under unemployment and building constructions on our property to move, this earth.

Maybe my food poisoning was one of cleansing in order to face the changes that we are ongoing. Maybe the food poisoning and the earthquake dream were to shake off my anxieties for the upcoming changes.

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Today’s meditation: I did the guided mediation of Japanese Mediumship School.

My guide spirit gave me two gifts. The first gift was a light sword. I can use this sword to cut off any unnecessary human relationships, events, and bad memories. The second gift was a tatami mat. Since I cannot go back to Japan frequently, I can use a tatami mat. This tatami mat is a metaphor of Japanese culture. I can be creative on how I can incorporate Japanese culture in my daily life. My guide spirit wants me to use the tatami mat to create my environment comfortable by incorporating Japanese cultures that I respect and feel comfortable.

(Question) How should I live during this second wave of Covid-19.

I received the message like this.

Covid-19 does not have only scary aspect but also accompanied with lots of positive changes in human life. Find lots of the positive aspects and share them with many people. Stay positive and stay being appreciative for everything. Believe that everything is heading to a better world with this rare worldwide pandemic experience.

At night after my family went to bed, I stayed in my study room and started a meditation. After several minutes passed of the meditation, I noticed the heavy stomach pain. It got worse and worse to the point where I could not sit still. I felt a strong urge to have a bowel movement with a strong stomach pain and went to bathroom. I released nothing but liquid. I had a diarrhea. When I went back to my room, this time I felt a strong urge to vomit. By this time, I could not sit still nor walk normally. I felt severe an abdominal cramping too. I noticed this was a food poisoning.

It was so painful. I suffered from unbearable pain for an hour or so. My family gave me reiki energy and prayed for me that I would be able to sleep. With their help, regardless of the severe pain, I somehow could fall asleep.

I don’t know what the cause of the food poisoning was. I ate the leftover of the sushi from yesterday. Other than that, I cooked every food for my family and me. So, the sushi might be the cause of food poisoning. Or I was just low in immune system. It was a disaster.

For some reasons, in the morning I craved to eat sushi from the restaurant. In the afternoon my daughter and I went to the restaurant and bought a family pack of sushi combo.

It was good. I enjoyed eating it. But I got extremely thirsty at night. My body required lots of water.

Maybe my body could not handle the amount of salt that was contained in the variety sauces of the topping of the sushi. I should be more careful of what I eat.

I attended my fourth mantra class.

We leaned three short mantras.

(1) So Ham

(2) Aham Brahmasmi

(3) Tat Tvam Asi

I have been making lots of efforts to study Sanskrit alphabet and their mantras. I study and listen to the mantra sounds every day.

So, in tonight’s class, I could show my progress to the instructor. The instructor and other student acknowledged my efforts and praised me.

I felt so good. I am enjoying this class a lot.

I attended my seventh awareness basic class.

In yesterday’s Trance class, the instructor asked me to use a headset during the class in order to improve my sound quality. This morning my husband supported me a lot. He dissembled the computer and cleaned the pc fan, which was helpful to get rid of the loud fan noise. Also we purchased the sound recording app, so that even though I wear a headset, the app can record the pc sound as well as my own microphone voice. I could attend the class without any concerns of sound quality issues.

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Today’s guided meditation was called a chakra color therapy. We were guided to the place where there were seven rainbow colors for healing. We were guided to one specific color that we were attracted the most. I was drawn to purple. When I was surrounded by the purple energy, I felt being healed. It was so comfortable energy.   

We were guided to visit a place of one of our past lives. I found myself somewhere in Middle East. I was surprised as I am not interested in this area. Also in my past life meditation, I never was in Middle East. I was a little girl of 6 years old. Since my dad was a successful business man, we were considered as a rich family. I was not interested in any of luxurious materials. My interest was in nature. I was good at finding medicine plants. I always stayed in nature with plants. My guide spirit showed up in a young male figure. He was wearing a white robe, but inside was just naked. He had tanned skin and built-up strong body. He was very handsome. He gave me a soup shaped stone. He told me this stone is a grandpa as he had lived thousands of years and observed human history. In the long human’s history, humans have made lots of mistakes, but they also acquired and accumulated lots of wisdom from the mistakes. The stone stores all the wisdom. When I gently squeeze this stone, I can take a peek of the solemn wisdom from the stone.

(The question) Why cleansing is important?

I received the message like this.

In daily life, no matter how we are careful for not to get negative energy in our aura field, it is inevitable to accidently catch other people’s negative energy. Cleaning our aura field before we go to bed is critical just like brushing our teeth. If we brush our teeth every day, we can prevent to build hardcore teeth scales. The same logic can be applied to cleaning our aura field. If we take good care of our energy field and cleanse it every night, we can prevent from building the hardcore damage in our energy field.

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Then we proceeded to a simulation practice of a spiritual counseling.

In the practice, the instructor asked me this question.

“I don’t have any confidence at all. I feel like I don’t have any spiritual gift.”

When I heard this practice question, I busted into laughter, because this was exactly what I felt last night after Trance class. I thought this was definitely the support from my family spirits.

I intuitively answered like this.

“It is pretty normal to fall into a slump. It happens to everybody. In any situation, your family spirits are heartwarmingly supporting you. However, if you feel yourself as useless or bad, it drains your energy and lowers your vibration. On the other hand, if you constantly feel yourself as good, it raises your vibration. Keeping your vibration high makes you to feel confident with your spiritual gifts. Also, it makes your family spirits easy to support you.”

I considered this message from my family spirits to me. Their message made my heart warm.

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After the class, the instructor, one of the fellow students, and I stayed in the zoom room and had a little chat. There, I noticed I was not the only one who felt a slump and scared of the main male instructor of the school. This “girls’ chat” made me feel relieved.

Today’s dream: I was in the office at my brother’s company in Japan. My brother was wearing a clear blue jacket. It looked good on him. After we had a good discussion at the office, we left the office together. We stopped by at an indoor swimming pool and swam together, then we went back home together. Then I woke up feeling refreshed and happy. I appreciate my brother for his visiting me in my dream world.

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I attended my fourth trance class. There were six students attended.

I experienced many depressed moments. Everything didn’t turn out well for me.

I have noticed the serious sound issues every time when this instructor hosted zoom meetings. It is weird, but I never had same issues with other zoom meetings. On the recent Sunday service that this instructor hosted, as soon as I unmuted, it caused other participants voices muffled. However, on the next day, I attended another Sunday service that was hosted by American man, even when I unmuted, it didn’t cause any issues to my voice nor other participant’s voice.

To be honest, this sound issue has made me stressed out.

Since yesterday, my husband and worked on the zoom sound setting. We know a headset will solve the sound issue, but then, I cannot record the class. I normally record the class with my cell phone putting in front of the computer. In order to keep the recording method by my cell phone, we decided to buy a PC microphone.

In the evening we went a couple of stores to look for a PC microphone. All the microphones were out of stock, as many people started working online and needed a good webcam and a microphone. We finally found one microphone. After we arrived at house, my husband set up the microphone along with the recording app.

Everything was set. Everything should have gone well.

However, it didn’t turn out well for me.

20 minutes before the class, I restarted my computer. After restarted, my computer acted weird and kept freezing. I needed to restart it again. This time, the internet connection was out, even though the router was working normally. I got panicky. I somewhat could enter to the zoom room 1 minute before the class started.

The meditation went well. I got a good message.

My guide spirits showed up with four light figures. They looked like mirages. They gave me a blue star shaped toy. They told me to use this toy with a child’s pure heart. Normal people will think as this toy as is. However, with a child’s pure heart, with creative ability, I can use this toy in many different ways. They wanted me to do the same for everything I see and experience. They want me not to see things and events same as other people. Be creative and see things from many different ways. When I do so, everything in daily life should appear differently. I won’t be able to see things same as before. Everything and every event happens for reasons. The reasons are not just one, but plurals.

(Question) Currently on this earth, the second wave of Covid-19 has arrived. Many people are still suffering. What should I live in this environment?

I received the answer like this.

Same as the blue toy, be creative and open my eyes wide, and see things and events differently. Don’t get fooled only one aspect. For example, mass media reports one aspect, which is normally only negative aspects. However, things are happening for reasons. They always have positive aspects too. There are many positive aspects in Covid-19 environment. They want me to find many positive aspects and share them as many people as possible. Open up my mind to the Universe. Focus on lots of positive aspects and share them with many people. That is how we can raise our vibration together and proceed the right direction.

(Inspirational speech practice) About eternal and change.

I received the messages like this.

The eternal thing is our existence. We exist as a spirit. That is eternal.

The changing things are events and environments. We came down to this earth with life plans, but things don’t go exactly same as we planned. Because not everybody remembers their life plan, or not everybody acts as they planned, in this co-creating environment on Earth, we need lots of flexibility to create with others. Sometimes things go quickly, other times things don’t happen at all, and other times we have to proceed the way we didn’t plan before. Everything is okay because no matter what roads we take, we are destined to the right direction eventually. It might take longer than we planned, as we detour, but it is still okay.

(Trans talk practice) About other stars and planets other than planet Earth

 I received the message like this.

The planet earth is not the only place where souls can reincarnate. There are many other stars and planets where souls can reincarnate. In other stars and planets, souls reincarnate as in spirit bodies and they are in a higher dimensions, so that humans cannot detect their existences. Some souls prefer to reincarnate in other stars and planets, while we chose to reincarnate to the planet Earth. Earth is a very unique place where souls can have a heavy human body and keep themselves as in a lower dimension. The learning process is much harder than that in other stars and planets. The souls reincarnated in many other stars and planets are connected with the souls reincarnated in the planet earth. We constantly communicate to one another and inspire to one another.

However, I decided not to share this message because of these reasons.

I didn’t concentrate to the high vibration at all. My mind was occupied by lots of physical leveled concerns. I compared me with other students. Their voice tone and vibration are changed when talking in trance. They said they don’t remember what they said. On the other hand, my voice tone and vibration stay the same, and I always remember what I say in trance. I feared about the instructor might kick me out from this class. That was why I chose the option of not to speak up. Because I scared of the instructor’s negative comment.

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I don’t know what to do. I feel I am lost. Maybe I should not take this instructor’s classes anymore. At his school, there are many other instructors whom I might feel relaxed and comfortable. Luckily he is not the only one instructor. I still like this school. I still want to learn a lot from this school. I don’t want to give up on my spiritual study.

Maybe, the issue is on me. The instructor actually didn’t do anything wrong. He never hurt me yet. It might be my ego. My ego wants my instructor to acknowledge my spiritual gift and praise me, just like he often does to other students.

I have noticed this instructor is very nice to other specific students. It seems to me they are his favorites. I probably feel jealous to them.

While I am writing this, my family spirits gave me a block of thoughts. Some of his favorites have studied under him for more than ten years. Some of them worked together with him for the school for many years. I don’t need to get jealous to them. I just entered to this school this June. I am still quite new to this instructor. He does not know me at all, so it is normal that I am not his favorite yet. I might become his favorite or I might not. It is all about the strength of spiritual connection. So, I don’t need to worry about it. Just stay being myself. As for my spiritual ability, do not ever doubt it. It is there for sure. I am gifted for sure. I don’t need to compare with anybody. Everybody is unique. I have my own way. I am well-protected and well-supported all the times. I should be aware of that.

Now I am feeling calm. Thanks to my family spirits, I think I can sleep now, without any concerns.

Everything will be all right. The zoom sound issue will be solved. I will get better on trance talk. I don’t need to be exactly same as other students. I might change my voice tone. I might still remember what I say in trance. That is all fine. Just relax and rest.

My husband and I attended the Sunday service presented by Golden Gate Spiritualist Church of San Francisco. Today’s guest medium was my teacher of the Japanese mediumship school. Before we entered the event, we prayed to my husbands’ ancestors to come in and aggressively wave to the medium to catch his attention.

There they came. My teacher, the medium, chose my husband to convey messages from his ancestors.

His spiritual communication was like this.

He saw an old lady who’s got a white hair and a dark haired young girl who are in a train. They were talking about my husband planning to travel soon. He saw lots of spirits with dark skin. They were my husband’s ancestors. He felt the young girl was in the spirit world, the miscarried one. They showed him a new pair of shoes. They wanted to give my husband a new sturdy work boots.

The medium saw my husband is walking carefully on a building site. These boots will protect him and keep him safe. They don’t want him to be hasty. They want him to stay safe. They are always watching you.

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They are great messages for my husband. Indeed we are in the process of building our shed as a starter on our Homesite. I am glad my husband’s many ancestors are watching over him for his safety. I know they are happy for our moving back to Navajoland.

Today was my 100^th day on reading chapter 9 of “The Greatest Miracle In The World” By Og Mandino. I am so happy that I have achieved these 100^th day. Along with this reading assignment, I chanted 般若心経 (Heart Sutra Mantra) for 100 days. This is mainly for my late mom. I knew she was in the safe place with my grandpa and grandpa, and my son in spirit, but I wanted to do something good for my mom anyway.

Now that I have accomplished my 100^th day assignment, I feel great. I am in the process of enhancing my spiritual awareness. The biggest achievement I feel is to feel my late mom closely. I love my mom dearly and I feel her huge love directly. Not to mention, I always feel huge love from my family spirits.

I will live my remainder years to the fullest. I will cherish every moment in this physical realm.

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Today’s meditation: I did the guided mediation of Japanese Mediumship School.

My guide spirit showed up a male elder. His mouth was covered by a long beard, his long and white hair was everywhere. I could feel his great sense of humor. He already made me laugh by his appearance.

He gave me a magical cane. The cane omits blue sparkling lights. This cane can be used to be a pipe to connect between the spirit world and the earth to convey sacred messages and healing energy.

Today’s dream: I was in a gorgeous mansion in England with four women. The women were the wives of rich family. They decorated themselves in a vibrant dress and luxurious jewelries all over their bodies. Although the appearance was totally different, I knew one of the wives was my late mom. I was working as their house maid and taking care of their daily life. While the other three wives were cocky and never directly talked to me, my mom was the only one who was very friendly to me. She always talked to me nicely and we laughed together. One time when I peeled skin of a variety of fruits and offered the four wives, my mom was so happy to see the many different fruits. She accidentally dropped one piece of fruit from a fork. When I was about to pick it up from the ground, my mom picked it up quickly before me. She grinned to me and rinsed the piece of fruit in the muddy puddle on the ground, and ate it. We both busted into laughter. Then I woke up.

I thought it is my mom’s true personality. In her recent life, she was too serious and inflexible. She had lived her life constantly worrying about what others will think of her. But now in the spirit world, she is living her life free from those wrong concepts. She can do whatever she wants. She laughs a lot. She enjoys every moment with others. I felt happy for my mom that now she can be true to herself.  

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My family and I went to the canyon hiking in the morning. We saw many lively wild animals such as deer, turkeys, and squirrels. Also there were much more hikers too. I always feel comfortable to walk in nature. Every sound of water flowing, birds’ chirping, and animal walking is healing to me.

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At night at 8:30 p.m., I attended the Sunday service of the Japanese mediumship school. I haven’t attended it since September 19^th. I decided not to attend every Sunday service, but tonight’s MC was my awareness basic class teacher. She is also one of my favorite mediums. She is always sincere, humble, thoughtful, and kind. I like her a lot. I wanted to support her by attending her service.

At the spiritual communication demonstration, I didn’t expect I would be chosen. While I was totally relaxed and observing others, my favorite medium started describing somebody. It was definitely my late mom. I started shedding tears. When she asked everybody if her description resonated with anybody, I quickly raised my hand. My tears were the definite evidence that was my late mom.

The medium conveyed the message from my mom. She regretted that she had lived her recent life with being too serious and inflexible. She could not express her love to me fully, as she constantly worried about what others would think of her and me. Now she is with me. She is back to her original personality. She is much more flexible and free from anything. Even though right now she does not have a physical body, she is happy that she and I can communicate freely and intensely.

It was a great message. I thought it interesting that I just had a dream of my mom. She conveyed the exactly same message in my dream and through the medium. I look forward to working with my mom from now on. I know she will be a great supporter in my spiritual work and path. I love my mom much more than ever.

Today’s dream: My family and I were busy packing for moving. Then I woke up.

For this dream I don’t need to look up the dream interpretation dictionary. It means as is, as we are really planning to move back to Navajoland as soon as we finish building our shed. I are planning to move in next spring, but it might happen earlier than our plan.

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Today was a busy day. I had lunch with my local Japanese friend at the restaurant. She and I share the taste of humor in common. We always enjoy laughing together. Having a get together with her is always fun and relaxing. We talked a lot about dogs. She is a dog lover and has had seven dogs so far as her pet. My family and I are planning to have dogs as soon as we move to Navajoland. She gave me lots of advice about having dogs. I hope I will have a Golden Retriever for me. My daughter will adopt one dog whose name is Happy from her grandma. My husband will have his favorite dog in the future. I know our life with dogs will be great. I cannot wait for the day to come.

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After dinner at 5 p.m., I talked with my life-long Japanese friend on the phone. I appreciate for our 40 years long lasting friendship. I feel myself as a happy person who is blessed with great friendship.