I was sorry for one of my Japanese acquaintances who currently lives in New York. She said she could not go outside for three weeks, because it has been dangerous for Asians tin public. Many Asian got beaten up just because they are Asian.

In the morning I went to the local dollar store. The worker kindly informed me the store would restock items on every Sunday morning. I was a bit scared to go to the store by myself, because of what I just heard from the Japanese woman living in New York. But I had to go there alone. I didn’t want to put my daughter in danger. Regardless of my concern, my shopping went peacefully. Inside the store, one police man was standing next to the cashier waiting line. He announced all the customers to stay calm during our shopping. I thanked the police man to be there for us.  

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The new announcement of today. Starting from today, our community decided to close all the amenities in the local area. It includes Basketball Courts, Baseball Fields, the Skate Park, and the Tennis Courts. Using swings, slides, etc are not allowed.

It is sad for kids. How can they exercise? I go walk with my daughter, but I know it is not enough exercise for her. In school she would run around with her friends and get sweated. Or in the PE class, they do a variety of activity that make them sweat. I wonder what other kids are doing to get rid of their stress.

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In the evening my friend and I went for a long walk. This week we could do this exercise twice a week. I like our good exercise. We again walked 5 miles. During the walk, she casually asked me how my mom is doing. I could not answer her question. I still haven’t mentioned about my mom’s departure to her. In fact, I haven’t talk about that to most of my other friends. I still cannot talk about it to my in-laws. I mentioned it to my husband and daughter, and my life-long friend. I could somewhat talk about it only to these three people. I am not ready to talk about it to anybody else. Still too painful for me. Maybe it is the same way for my dad and my brother. My mom’s 49^th day will be April 11^th. We are supposed to mourn about her until the day.

As of yesterday April 3rd, Centers for Disease Control and Prevention, CDC, recommends Americans to wear a fabric mask in public such as a grocery store or a public transportation. My friends told me product masks are already out of stock in stores. CDC recommends to use anything fabric made at home or simply use a bandana or something to cover our nose and mouth.

I sewed three face masks for my family and myself. I used some organic cotton and gauze. It is comfortable to breath. I am satisfied to my homemade mask.

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Walmart and Target announced their new policy. Starting from today, they will limit the number of customers who can enter the store. The customer can only walk one-way in the store. I didn’t go to the store so I don’t know how inconvenient this new policy for customers. Every day I am alert of new announcements that make our daily life tighten and inconvenient.

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This pandemic term is definitely not fun for humans. But it is happening for reasons. It seems to be beneficial for the planet Earth. Now that less cars and airplanes are driving, the air has gotten much cleaner without air prolusion from gas emission. Less people go outside especially at night, so that we don’t consume much electricity as before. We stay home and spend more time with family, so that our family bond has gotten stronger than before. I want to keep focusing on the positive sides during this tough transition. And of course I hope everything will calm down as soon as possible so that we all can get back to our original routine.

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In the evening my friend and I tried our new longer route. We walked more than 5 miles (8 km). I felt great to have sweat coming from inner muscle.

The school superintendent shared some information at the Facebook Live. The state decided to add grades during the school closure of eight weeks. The teachers will grade the assignments for the eight weeks and it will reflect the final grade.

I feel relieved to know that students will be upgraded to the next grade as long as they keep working on their weekly assignments.

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One sad news came in. Today the official news reported one covid-19 positive patient was confirmed at my husband’s workplace. His supervisor says if my husband’s customer requests him to work from home, then he can work from home. I hope his customers will be supportive enough to request the staying home. Then, he will be able to remotely support and fix any issues on his customers’ computers.

This morning the maintenance man came to our house and switched from the gas heater to the swamp cooler. Finally!! I requested this on March 7^th. It took them one month to answer my request. I was almost impatient as it has been very hot these days. I am happy now to have the cooler back on.

There has been a rumor that covid-19 will calm down as we have warmer season comes up. But nowadays several news sources denied the rumor. Since this virus is new to humans, and it has been evolving, nobody can confirm it will die down just like a normal flu.

We still have hope. We have super-hot temperature in our summer in Arizona. I really hope this hot temperature will kill all the germs and the viruses and we will get back to our peaceful days.

In the middle of this hectic duration, I wanted to feel good about the current situation. With the intention, I searched some good news about Covid-19.

After my research regarding the current global horoscope, I learned some unique astrological events. The major event of this year is the Saturn’s journey from Capricorn to Aquarius. Saturn has left Capricorn on December 2019 and proceed to Aquarius until March 22^nd 2020. From here to July 1^st for little over three months, Saturn will retrograde back to Capricorn, then back to proceed again to Aquarius. On December 22^nd 2020, Saturn will finally set in Aquarius.

Since Saturn influences the society, during this transition, we will encounter some drastic changes in our society. Influenced by Capricorn, our society was hard, heavy like dull stone, hierarchical, old traditional, working with groups, structural, and limited by boundaries. On the other hand, Aquarius will influence our society totally different ways from Capricorn. It will be flexible, no boundaries, working as an individual, focusing on humanitarianism, fairness, and no-discrimination between races or skin colors.  

Some horoscope readers say Covid-19 will get its peak on April 10^th and gradually goes down around May 14^th. Then it goes back again in June. During this transition term we will encounter some phrases like “getting better” and “going back.”

We are for sure in the midst of the transition. The transition is always hard for everybody. However, after we go through this tough transition term, we will be embraced by the upcoming new stage. The new stage should be much more evolved one. We will love the new evolved stage.

At night I called my dad. He was happy to hear my voice. He said he feels lonely especially at night staying alone in the house where my late mom was always with him. I understand how lonely he is. I feel sorry that I cannot visit him sooner.

I wanted to have a conversation with my dad for just fun. I wanted to end our conversation with happy feeling.

However, my dad started complaining about my late mom. He still believes my mom passed away because she refused the chemotherapy treatment. We had this conversation many times while my mom was alive. I told my dad that since it was my mom’s life, she had the right to decide on the medical treatment for her body. After my mom had the chemotherapy treatment twice, she decided not to have it anymore. She wanted to value her QOL (quality of life) for her remainder life. That was why she chose to stay home peacefully and depart to the spirit world on her own bed in her house, instead of talking the chemotherapy and die on the hospital bed. I respect my mom’s decision and I am happy for my mom to be able to depart on the bed in her house without having agonies. I started feeling irritated to my dad for his not being able to be happy for my mom. He is still stack at the same place where he keeps blaming my mom to depart before him.

I didn’t want to argue with my dad, so I tried to finish the conversation with him. My dad didn’t allow me hang up the phone. He started talking about the inheritance from my late mom.

Then again, I started feeling irritated by what my dad said. He changes his mind every time when I talk to him. At our first conversation, he said he wants to inherit all of my mom’s inheritance without sharing it with my brother and me. At our second conversation however, my dad didn’t remember what he said on our previous conversation. He said he would share it with three of us. Then at our third conversation of today, he went back to the original state. He insisted he should receive all of inheritance from my mom. Whatever I explained him about the inheritance law that all the lawful heirs need to agree on Agreement on Division of Inheritance, he didn’t listen to me. He doesn’t believe me that he cannot decide everything secretively by law.

While I was talking with him, I thought I should end this conversation. He would not listen to me anyway. I hope his accountant will explain him so that we will go through this paper procedure without any issues. I am not feeling comfortable talking with my dad. I should take time on this process. And my family should get a professional person’s support for this instead of dealing with this all by ourselves.

I went to the grocery store in the early morning. While I was approaching to the entrance door, I saw many customers inside the store, but the entrance door was closed. I went to the other side of the entrance door, which is the main door. There were around 30 people with a shopping cart waiting in front of the door. I saw a sign saying their senior hour from 6 to 7 a.m. The people who came behind me had white hair could go into the store. The store worker did not request elders their age. All of them had white hair. I thought to myself, if my hair was covered by white hair, the store worker might have me go through the door. I am glad I don’t have much white hair in my head yet.

All the other younger generation customers had to wait at the door. I needed to wait for 20 minutes until their special senior hour ended.

When I entered the store, there were a whole bunch of old people shopping. It was very hard for everybody to move around inside the store. I saw many empty shelves here and there. I also saw customers with full of shopping cars waiting in long waiting-lines for cashiers.

All of a sudden, a gasp of sadness came into me. I got emotional and almost burst into tears. Maybe I sensed other people’s sad feeling. It is sad to see something like this in all the stores.

I woke up at 3:23 a.m. I heard an owl’s hooting in our neighborhood. I considered this owl’s visit as a good message. An owl is a wise one who calmly observes things and always be alert. I also felt the owl came to convey a message to us that we are always protected by our family spirits.

From today the school changed the food delivery time to late morning. It used to arrive to our local bus stop at 8:50 a.m., but from today, it arrives at 11:00 a.m. Their main reason to change the delivery time is to try to reach many students. Some students complained the previous time was too early for them. They overslept and missed to grab the food packet. It was hard for me to believe that. If so, I feel sorry for the kids for not having been able to get up in the morning regularly.

The coronavirus situation has gotten more serious than before.

Arizona State issued a Stay-at-home order to Arizona residents until April 30^th. This order will go into effect tomorrow Tuesday at 5 p.m. The local police department confirmed we can still go walk for exercise. It is not that strict as that of some countries of Europe where they need a certificate to go outside, even if it’s for a bike ride or a walk.

As of today, president trump extended social distancing guidelines to April 30^th. One of the article says it could possibly extend to June.

With his announcement, our area’s authority has decided to extend the school closure through the remainder of the school year. So, students won’t be able to go to school until the next school year of August.

It is sad for students that they cannot go to school in this school year anymore, but this will make our community stay healthy.

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My personal update. My period came this morning as scheduled. I am thankful for that.

Thinking back of last year, after I heard about the shocking news of my parents, they both got a cancer, my period started coming irregular. Now that my period started calming down. This year for three months so far, it came regularly.

It was a windy day. The wind got much stronger in the night. As the strong wind blew, the roof shingles started making loud noise banging the roof. It sounded as if a giant monster was jumping on the roof.

I almost said some complains about the old roof shingles. But my daughter saved me for doing so. Instead of complaining, she started saying all the nice things to our house and the roof shingles.

She said “thank you to our house for protecting us. Thanks to your protection, we are staying safe inside the house in this strong windy night. Thank you for everything.”

I was impressed at how my daughter interpreted at the same scenery. I also thanked my daughter to teach me in such a beautiful way.

I joined my daughter and started saying a good prayer to our house.

Indeed, thanks to our house, we are safe inside the house in this strong windy day.