Every day almost all news were talking about Coronavirus disease (COVID-19).

One news reports most airline companies will bankrupt by the end of May. The workers of restaurants, movie theaters, and hotels are told to stay home. They worry about not being able to pay for the monthly bills.

One Japanese fortune teller predicted this pandemic several months before it actually happened. He says the year of Rat is always a radical year to drastically impact all over the world. He is right. At the previous Rat year was 2008 when the world experienced a severe worldwide economic crisis. At that time President Bush signed the Economic Stimulus Act of 2008. Qualified tax payers received the Economic Stimulus Checks up to $600 individual and $1,200 for joint married.

This year too President Trump is working on the same, but this time, more amount than 2008.

I also read the news of the bug earthquake in Salt Lake City. I pray for everybody to get things back to normal. I miss our peaceful days.

From today to March 29^th, all the schools will be closed for two weeks as spring vacation.

In the morning our entrance doorbell rang. It was an unexpected visitor. Also we have read some crazy customers in store fought for a toilet tissue. With these, my daughter got scared about the unexpected visitor and run back to the backroom. After I confirmed my daughter was hiding in the safe area, I answered the door. I got relieved. It was an electricity company technician to replace the water meter to a brand new one. I almost forgot they sent us a notice letter in advance. The procedure of switching the water meter was done quickly.

***

We are lacking of toilet paper and facial tissue. I started using the old shirts as alternatives. Once I get used to it, it is fine with me.

Our community is supportive for the school students during these self-quarantine. My daughter’s school offers free-internet during these two weeks so that students can study online. Also the school mentions to provide food support for next week. I started teaching my daughter Japanese language with using Japanese text books. Also I started supporting her for her preparation of the end of school year test.

I think the students in this era are fully benefited from high technology. Through Internet connection, they can study anywhere.

I wonder how my mom is thinking to witness these hectic situation on the Earth from the place where is always peaceful. I wish I could talk to her and get her advice. But then again, I don’t want to make her concern about us. I want her to feel relaxed and sit back and enjoy watching us.

We received a mass phone call from school. They decided to extend their one week spring break to two weeks due to coronavirus.

I got chills in my back.

My family and I felt needs to go to grocery store. At the store, I got chills again in all over my body. Produce department, meat department, imperishable dry foods, and frozen foods are almost out of stock. I never saw such unusual scenery in a grocery store.

In my dream my brother visited me. He apologized for not contacting me. He was not mean to be mean to me. He is still overwhelmed by what happened to him. He is still in the process of what he has seen and experienced through our mom’s departure. Right after my mom passed away, the first person my dad called was my brother. He saw my mom’s freshly dead body. It was his very first time to see it. He saw the body emitting liquid. He stayed with our mom’s body all night at the funeral hall. He witnessed the funeral and the cremated ashes. He believes our mom passed away earlier than she was supposed to. She passed away early from extreme stress about our dad. He still fights with his inner anger toward our dad.

Everything was too much for my brother. He still needs more time to calm himself.

***

When I woke up, I still vividly remembered the details about my brother’s visit. I fully understand how he feels. I appreciate my mom supported me for not witnessing all the things that my brother needed to witness.

My brother’s visit in my dream was the answer to my question.

I appreciate my family spirits to allow me for this happened. I trust my spiritual gift that I can see things through my dream.

It was a nice sunny day.

I noticed one thing. When I am in a deep relaxation, I feel my mom’s existence beside me. Such deep relaxation moments include the moment of right before I fall asleep, the moment I am soaking myself in a nice hot temperature tub with my daughter, and the moment I am hanging laundry in the nice sunny day in the backyard. I feel my mom is enjoying the relaxation moment with me. I am happy that I can share my relaxation moments with my mom. She deserves to feel happiness and calmness.

***

At the end of February, when I talked with my cousin, he mentioned about their serious issue of lacking toilet papers. At that time I didn’t think it seriously. I thought the same issue would happen in America. Now, two weeks later, I finally realized the serious issue happening all over the world. In our neighbor stores such as Sam’s club, Walmart, Safeway, Target, and Fry’s Food, their racks of toilet tissues are all empty.

As many people commented, I never thought I would experience this serious situation. We are facing at the same serious situation of toilet tissue shortage during the global oil crisis of 1973.

In Japan people started posting there are plenty of toilet tissues available. In Aeon group, as of March 5^th, they started selling it up to 10 per customer.

In my dream, I knew two people. I thought these two people would become good friends, so I set up an opportunity for them to meet each other. Later on I found out these two did not get along. They both got mad at me for setting up their meeting. I regret I took any actions for them. I did it thinking it would make things better, but it actually backfired.

Before I did anything, I still laid in bed and pondered the meaning of the dream.

It might be a message for me about the inheritance. My family spirits want me to just lay back, relax, and watch what it will happen next. Instead of calling my dad often and asking him about the inheritance, I should give him a sacred distance for him so that he will get calm and think the best way not only for him but also for my brother and me.

Now I total get it the reason why my family spirits showed me this dream.

I trust my family spirits and angels to work well for me. I should not force anything to happen. Things will proceed as they should. All I can do is sit back and trust.

***

This morning I had a regular dental cleaning. The dentist and hygienist praised me for my good work in my teeth.

***

I went to a hair salon and had a haircut. The last time of my hair cut by a professional was December 2018. Since then, I started let my hair bangs grow. I had enjoyed my hair without bangs for more than one year. Now I wanted to change my appearance. I asked the hair to make my hair bangs around my eye brows.

I like my new hair style with bangs.

My daughter and her friend were planning to have a playdate at our house this evening.

I was busy cleaning and organizing our house in the morning. It is good to have some visitors from time to time, as it motivates us to keep our house clean and being organized. It was fun for me to prepare some snack for them.

While I was cooking dinner, I happily heard the girls’ laughing. The kids’ laughter is always wonderful to hear.

It was a quiet and peaceful day.

I read a book マンガでわかる「いつも誰かに振り回される」が一瞬で変わる方法 written by 森下 えみこ (著), 大嶋 信頼  (著).

It was a pretty good book. The author is a counselor who studied phycology at the university in America.

I learned a lot from this book.

The author explains our negative emotions by using the term “mirror neuron.” Our brains sense others’ feeling and emotions so that we get affected by others.

He introduces some mantras when we encounter situations where we take negative energy that belong to others. The mantras are helpful to protect ourselves by recognizing the negative energy does not belong to us. He writes and explains from his knowledge of psychology, but everything applies to the knowledge of spirituality. “Mirror neuron” corresponds to “empath.” His “mantra” technique corresponds to “raising our vibration” technique and “having a sacred boundary” technique.

I wrote down all the mantras in my notebook. I am going to use the mantras in my daily life.

Today is my 50^th birthday.

I woke up feeling good. I know my mom cerebrated my birthday in my dream.

When I was awake, the first thing I received was a warm hug and kiss from my daughter cerebrating my birthday. When I went to kitchen, my husband did the same thing as my daughter. He gave me a warm hug and kiss, and a birthday wish.

Right before I saw my daughter off at the school bus stop, she told me a message from my mom. My mom will visit me to cerebrate my birthday and spend good time with me today.

When I came back home from the bus stop, I took a look of my cell phone. I noticed one unusual text message.

The message sender was my old friend. She is around my mom’s age. In fact she is just one year younger than my mom. She sent me a warmhearted birthday wish. It was sent at 6 a.m. this morning.

It was unusual because we haven’t keep in touch for these two of years. The last time we talked on the phone was two years ago. She mentioned her getting injured and being sick. I used to call her “my mother on this land.” I feel comfortable being around her. I feel she had been once my mom in one of my past lives.

I am sure my mom contacted her to send me a birthday wish.

***

I also received a warmhearted birthday wish from my life-long friend.

Every year, I used to receive a birthday wish from my mom and my life-long friend. These two people never forgot sending me a birthday wish for many, many years. This year my mom couldn’t do it by herself, so she contacted my old friend to send it to me.

***

My life-long friend feels my mom is visiting me on my birthday. On my 50^th birthday my mom can snuggle up with me and send her love to me the most in my life. My mom is happy for doing so right now.

I am happy for my mom too. She is now finally fully relaxed. She is stress-free and completely happy.

***

On my 50^th birthday, I want to make a wish.

I want to cherish every moment; every minute and every second, to be here on this earth. I appreciate my husband and daughter to be my precious family. I appreciate my life-long friend to be my friend and live the same time with me. I want to live my remainder life of 30 to 40 years to stay being healthy and active, and happy no matter what. I appreciate my spirits and angels and ancestors to watch over me. I will bring lots of experiences and my stories when my time has come to go back there. Until then, I will fully enjoy being here on the Earth.

I watched the movie A Beautiful Day in the Neighborhood. The story is based on the true story of a real-life friendship between Fred Rogers and journalist Lloyd Vogel.

It was a great movie. I got emotional because I just had a similar experience as Lloyd.

Lloyd had hated his father from what his dad had done to him. Luckily for him he could see his dad before he passed away. His dad’s sickness brought the family back together.

One scene of this movie was a timely topic for me. When Lloyd and his family gathered around his dying dad, Mr. Rogers visited the grieving family and told them like this.

“Death is part of being human.”

“Anything Mentionable Is Manageable” Quoted from the movie A Beautiful Day in the Neighborhood.

I feel I was guided to watch this movie. I actually feel it was my mom who guided me to this movie. Mr. Rogers’s words was what I needed to hear at this moment.

***

In the evening I made two phone calls to Japan.

The first call was to the City Hall in my hometown in Japan, regarding how I can request an official document of 戸籍謄本; Certificate of Family Register I called my dad. On our last conversation of yesterday, he asked me to send him some 戸籍謄本. The city hall representative sounded like a young woman. She was informative and helpful.

First, she suggested me to contact the place of submission. There are some different types of the forms. I should make sure the purpose and exact name of the forms, and the required quantity to avoid any possible mistake in the document form.

Second, the representative suggested me to ask my family to request the form on behalf of me. The procedure of requesting the document from a foreign country takes many days. I can request the form from a foreign country, but I cannot request the City Hall to send the documents to my dad’s house. The city hall can send the documents back to the sender only. So in my case, I will need to send the request form to the City Hall in Japan first. The City hall will send the document to me in America. Then, I will need to send them to my dad in Japan. A letter usually takes 10 days to be delivered via air mail. So, it will take 30 days for us to deliver the documents to my dad.

After I finished the phone call with the City Hall, I called my dad.

I relayed the information that I got from the City Hall to my dad. He said he will ask his accountant.

My dad’s next sentences terrified me.

He said he needs the documents because I will need to sign the official document to discard my mom’s inheritance. My dad will take the inheritance from my mom all to himself without sharing with my brother and me. By law my dad is qualified to receive 50% and my brother and I are qualified to receive 25% each. Previously my dad never asked me to discard my inheritance right. However, today he asked me to discard my right.

My dad told me another shocking news. He already spent more than $100,000 for my mom’s death, including a tomb, a 戒名, a funeral service, and a set of Buddhism ceremonies.

I didn’t say anything to my dad. I said all the nice words to my dad and hung up the phone.

After I put my phone down, I lost my words for a while. I was shocked.

I thought my dad as a person of full of responsivity and fair. I was shocked he decided to take my mom’s inheritance all to himself instead of sharing with family.

My mom would not like everything my dad did for my mom’s death. She wanted to make everything as minimum. She wanted to be kept her ashes in her favorite temple for the first 10 years and discard after that. She didn’t want to be buried at the graveyard. She is probably shocked to know the huge amount that had spent for my mom’s death.

I need to know my best answer about the inheritance. I want to receive the 25% as my birthright. I know my mom wants me and my brother to receive the 25%. But how can I tell my dad without making him mad?

Maybe Mr. Rogers’s words can be applied to this situation. “Anything Mentionable Is Manageable.” All I need to have is wisdom to talk calmly and nicely to my dad.