This morning’s dream: our home dog “Osamu-chan” passed away in my arm. I cried so much for him.

Then I woke up. The dog was a puppy pug. I never had a pug dog in my life. Nor, I never had a pet named Osamu-chan in the real life. The dream interpretation dictionary says crying for a dog’s death forecasts the dreamer will have good fortune and their dream will come true.

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Today’s meditation: I did the guided meditation of Hemi Sync “Five messages”.

(1) About not calling my dad: I saw a vision of my maternal cousin. This cousin and his wife used to visit my parents very often, like every week. Right before the Christmas of last year, my parents and the cousin and his wife went to the restaurant. There, my mom got very sick. So she asked my cousin to give her a ride back home. My dad got mad claiming he had not finished his meal, so my mom should wait for him to finish his meal. Since then, my cousin and his wife stopped visiting my parents. The reason was obvious. My cousin didn’t like about my dad’s selfish behavior. My dad never noticed how my cousin felt. This vision told me that my dad is not good at sensing people’s feeling and emotion. My dad never knew how I felt from his selfish behaviors. My family spirits’ conclusion is that it does not matter if I call my dad or not. He never fully understands how he offends others and thus, he never understands the true feeling of others. He probably feels lonely for my not calling him, but he does not blame me for that. At this moment, it is all up to me. I should follow my intuition. If I feel myself strong enough to survive from whatever my dad says to me, then I can call him. Otherwise, I should wait for my good timing to call him.   

(2) To become a clairvoyant: I saw a vision of myself studying in the online mediumship class. So, I guess I am in the right course.

(3) Moving to flagstaff or Navajo nation: I saw a vision of a family with a small child. The child cannot choose which one the child likes better either mom or dad, because the child likes the bot parents equally. I interpret this as the answer. As of now, Flagstaff and Navajo Nation are both equally good. It might be a good idea to have two houses on both areas. Instead of having only one, why don’t you have both?

(4) How to start my spiritual business: This was an interesting one. I saw a vision of one of my boyfriends in my younger days. While we were chatting on Skype, he suddenly took off his underwear and showed his private in the webcam. Apart from judging good or bad, I think the core message from this vision was to be brave and just do it. I interpret my family spirits are encouraging me to give a reading session to strangers and practice my clairvoyant.

(5) Inheritance: I didn’t see any visions nor feel anything. I interpret this case is still up in the air.

In the morning my husband and daughter went for shopping in the mall, so could I enjoy a Sunday morning by myself. I did the guided meditation to Free Flow to Focus-21. During the meditation, I felt I should get back to my original routine of chanting Heart Sutra, 般若心経, on the daily basis.

After came back from the meditation state, I looked for a good video of 般若心経. Quickly, I found a very good one. The two monks chant Heart Sutra with the notation. It was easy for me to follow them.

Their intonations and Buddhist stoles were familiar with me. No wonder they belong to my local town’s temple. There are so many shrines and temples in my hometown, but this temple is the most familiar one for me. This was my mom’s favorite one.   

My mom’s dad, my grandpa Shintaro, is actually in this temple’s ossuary as in his ashes. My mom liked this temple a lot. She used to visit this temple every month. I remember my mom took my brother and me when we were small. She visited until she got very sick. So, she visited this temple every month for 60 years. My mom asked my brother and me to put her ashes into this temple together with her dad.

The young monk introduces himself as the vice priest who is going to pass it down from his dad eventually. He started posting YouTube video two years ago. I wish I could have found him before my mom’s departure, so that I could show his videos to my mom.

In my dream, I was at a temple. In the temple, there were only four people. All the four people were monks. I was a monk too. I have known them very well. Since I didn’t recognize the three people in my physical realm, they should be my family spirits. The four of us had a constructive conversation. Through our brainstorming, we came up to some great ideas. We all thanked each other for our great ideas. The temple was located up high in the sky. Even though we were at the very high place, whenever we wanted to see somebody in the physical realm, we could see them. All we needed to do was just focus on the person.

When the time had come for me to go back to the physical realm, the other three monks gave me a warm hug and wished me good luck in the physical realm. Then I woke up. It was a good dream and spiritual experience.  

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At night from 8:30 p.m., I attended the Sunday Service. This was my 4^th attendance to this gathering. I like being in this group. They are sincerely working hard for enhancing their spiritual awareness.

Every time it has a different energy. I am interested especially in sermon and spiritual communication demonstration.

This morning after I woke up, I didn’t jump up from the bed. Instead, I stayed in bed focusing on my feeling.

It has been almost 4months passed since my mom has departed to the spirit world. I feel lighter day by day. I feel like I have been in the recovering process to regain my true-self. I noticed how heavy traumas and burdens I had been carrying on my shoulder. Each day the heavy burdens have been peeling off. I never felt my soul lighter in this lifetime.

The main cause for all my trauma was my mom. But now my mom’s departure revealed the hidden truth I didn’t notice while she was alive. The true cause is my dad. My mom had been so stressed out for dealing with my stubborn dad for the entire time of their marriage.

It was just recently when I really and fully experienced how stubborn my dad is. I noticed his true face while I was visiting my mom in this January. My dad was never nice to my mom. Whenever my dad treated my mom in a mean way, my mom turned into mean to me. My mom needed somebody to release her stress. I need to protect myself. I cannot stay with them forever. I am so glad that I got away from them while I could.

This morning’s dream: I was with my daughter at the Japanese traditional hotel in Japan. We comfortably slept in Futon on the floor. On the next morning my daughter and I enjoyed sightseeing of Kobe. We had a great time together.

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It was one of the extreme heat days. I had lunch with my local Japanese friend at the restaurant. We share many things in common especially our hometown in Japan. I enjoyed so much for chatting with her in our local dialect.

I often tell my husband how relaxing to speak my own language. I wish he takes it seriously and will start studying Japanese language for me.

In this morning dream I was with my parents at their house in Japan. My mom kept on nudging me many things of to-do and not-to-do for my dad. My mom acted as my dad’s slave or worker who solely worked for my dad. While I was witnessing my mom, I felt sad. I went to my dad and begged him to take good care of my mom. I told my dad that my mom was not a worker for him, instead, she was his wife; the precious partner. I told my dad if he didn’t change his attitude, he would lose my mom. No matter how hard I tried to talk to my dad, no words would go through to my dad. He never changed his attitude. He stayed being stubborn. I went to the bath tub and soaked myself into a hot tub. I saw a sewing machine sitting on the side of the bath tub. For some reason, the sewing machine was shining. I knew that I should remember this sewing machine. This is the main message from my family spirits.

Then I woke up. Right after I woke up, I remembered that my mom already has departed. I started crying. I was sad that my dad never changed his attitude toward my mom while she was alive.

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After I calmed down, I looked up the meaning a sewing machine of dream interpretation.

A sewing machine in dream implies the dreamer’s concerns and worries will be solved quickly. I think this was the main message from my family spirits.

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After I calmed down, I looked up the meaning a sewing machine of dream interpretation.

A sewing machine in dream implies the dreamer’s concerns and worries will be solved quickly. I think this was the main message from my family spirits.

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For today’s meditation, I did the guided meditation to Focus-21.

The visions were displayed by frame-by-frame playback like an old movie. But all the visions were colorful ones. The visions were that of a house that we will live in the future. The house was built by woods. Interior was decorated by wooden furniture and items such as tables, chairs, counters, and tableware. It was comfortable space with calm and relaxing energy. I am looking forward to meeting this house in the near future.

New York, New Jersey and Connecticut issued a travel advisory for the people arriving from states with high coronavirus rates to quarantine for 14 days. Our state was included in the states with high Covid-19 infection rate.

Some of my Japanese friends asked me if my family and I are doing fine. They told me the Japanese news have been talking about Arizona of its high Covid-19 infection rate.

Despite the fact the infection rate has been rising, the local people act like everything has gotten back to completely normal. Recently for these one month, whenever I went some public areas such as grocery stores, I rarely see people with a facial mask. Obviously the people without a facial mask outnumbers the people who wears it.

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Update: Effective on June 27, in our neighbor city, the mayor issued an emergency declaration requiring that people over the age of 10 wear face coverings or shields while in public. Our small town still stays as “strongly recommended to wear a face covering” but not mandatory.  

I thought of Japan. They never had such declaration regarding a wearing a facial mask.

This morning I found apricots in the local grocery store. I was happy to see them. Two years ago when I tried to purchase them, I could not find them anywhere. Maybe they are very rare in this area.

Two years ago, I could not get apricots, so I used plums to make homemade umeboshi. They turned out very nice. I am using it almost every day.

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After I came back home, I weighed the apricots. They were 1,800 gram. I washed them and let them dry for one night.

On next day, June 24^th, I mixed the apricots with the salt (20% of the apricots) and covered with a plastic wrap. I put some weights with a heavy iron lid and some water bottles. They will gradually I will let it soak for one month until July 24^th. I will let them to get sun-dried for three days. Then, I will put them in a clean glass jar and let them cook by themselves for one year.  

It has been very hot recently. This afternoon, I felt dizzy. I needed to take a three-hours nap to recover myself.

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While we were walking in the evening, we found one lost item at the side of the street. It was a small bootie. At first I thought it belonged to a baby, but my husband thought it belonged to a dog.

He was right. When we got close to our house, our neighbor with two dogs asked us if we had seen one of her dogs’ little bootie. We happily answered to her we saw it. We promised her that we would bring it back to her on our second lap.

When I picked the little bootie up and took a close look, I was amazed how well it was made. It was just like a human’s shoe with a sturdy sole. In our area where it gets extremely hot during summer, dogs definitely need their sturdy shoes to walk on asphalted roads.

I started enrolling process of homeschooling for my daughter on June 16^th. Their website has some issues. The first issue was the error while uploading a file. The second issue was their website does not allow a user to review / edit once the data was input. I talked with several of the enrollment assistance representatives. They all said they were overwhelmed at the greater number of students to be enrolled for the upcoming school year.

One of the representative told me the new students will be at least 15 times as many as the previous years.

Definitely we are not the only ones who think of switching their children from public school to homeschooling.

I really hope this change, switching to homeschooling, will be beneficial for my daughter.