On the way back from the school bus stop, in the residence area, I saw a wild coyote in front of me in a very close distance.

It had a dark brown, beautiful fur. I felt full of confidence energy from the coyote.  Unlike any other pet animals, this coyote’s body was skinny and small, but sturdy with strong muscle.

I felt this coyote showed up in front of me for reasons. I wanted to know the message from this coyote.

So, I asked support to hear the message and meditated.

Soon enough, the spirit of the coyote showed up in my vision. The coyote sent me the block of thoughts. It was like this.

Don’t get bothered by other people’s opinions. You don’t need to obey yourself to others to just to please them. You don’t need to do or go whenever your desire is not there.

Stay being who you are. Remember who you are. You are strong spirit. Follow your heart. Follow your passion. Do whatever you desire from your heart. Go whenever you desire. Whatever you do is for you and for your soul, not to get people’s reputation.

As always, this message fits to my current thoughts. I don’t feel good whenever I follow to others against of my desire. Being true myself can attract the best fitted people and energy to me.

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When I was 21 years old, my parents were very strict when it comes to my safety. They set a curfew at 10 pm. This rule applied only to me. I have a one-year older brother. My parents didn’t set any rule for my brother. I used to feel it unfair while I was scolded by my parents for coming back later than 10 pm, my brother was happily going out to wherever he wanted.

My parents didn’t allow me to sleep over with my boyfriend. Again, it was unfair that my brother could sleep over anytime he wanted. My parents didn’t even ask my brother for the details.

So, whenever I went to sleep over with my boyfriend, I needed to make a fake plan in advance, such as pretending going for a short trip with my female friends. I felt guilty whenever I needed to lie to my mom about the fake trip. Some of my female friends had open-minded moms that my friends could freely talk about their sleep over with their boyfriend. I envied them for their open relationship with their moms.

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Fast forward to the current time, “47-years-old me”.

This morning I had a dream of my younger days. I was at the exact same situation as I was about to sleep over with my boyfriend. But in this dream, I acted differently than those days. I didn’t lie to my mom. I called her and told her straightforward that I was with my boyfriend and I was about to sleep over at his apartment. And, my mom in my dream acted differently than those days as well. She said “okay, have fun.”

And I woke up. I know my family souls woke me up on purpose, so that I could write down this dream.

In this dream, my mom and I rewrote our memory of those days together. My impression about my mom is now changed to a good one. Due to rewriting of this memory, I don’t have any guilty feeling to my mom anymore.

While I am writing this story, “Aha-moment” came to my mind.

Last night, right before I went to bed, I did a past regression meditation with listening the audio of Denise Linn. In the audio, Denise encouraged the listener to freely rewrite the memory of past life. She said once it is rewritten to our favorite outcome, we will be healed.

So, here it is. I just activated the healing during my dream. Thank you Denise for your support on this healing. It worked for me nicely.

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Last night at the channeling event, one audience asked about the solar eclipse. According to her, we will have solar eclipse on August 21, 2017 here in America. Her question was if we can expect anything from this solar eclipse. Adironnda answered that we would feel a great energy shift from this solar eclipse.

According to Adironnda, we don’t necessary need to be at the line of solar eclipse nor watch it, because all of us would feel the energy shift at all over the world. That means you don’t need to be here in America. You can feel it in Japan as well.

They mentioned the solar eclipse day will be an activation day that each of us will receive great support from spirits.

And, they urged to us to get ready for activation. It might be the project that you are currently working on. It might be your old and forgotten life dream.

We have 3.5 months until the activation day. Let’s keep making efforts on our project or life dream. Let’s get ready for the huge activation day.   

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This morning, a box was delivered. It was from the Japanese online store. The delivery man was kind enough to bring the box into my living room. I was so excited about all my favorite Japanese food. As soon as I tried to reach the box on the floor by bending over to it, I strained my back. This strained back was so painful that I could not walk normally during the day time. After my husband and daughter came back, I started walking somewhat.  

In the evening, my family had a plan to go out. It was a live event for a channeler. I like her channeling session and I didn’t want to miss it, so I forced myself to go there.

Before the channeling event, we had a potluck party so that everybody could enjoy conversation with the channeler and other participants. When the channeler came to me and asked about my back pain, I naturally mentioned that I was born lucking one spine so I have chronic back pain all my life.

As soon as her channeling started, she welcomed the group soul called Addironda. They started explaining about the numerological meaning of May 5th 2017. When we add up all the figures, 5 + 5 + 2 + 0 + 1 +7, it becomes 20. They explained “number 2 energy” deals with partnership, and “number 0 energy” deals with divine energy or god energy. So, “the number 20” teaches us to have a divine partnership with our own divine self. They said it also means to have a divine partnership with our soul and our physical body. They encouraged us to make a peace with our body. They said “if somebody has any types of old concepts or complaints about your physical body, let’s get rid of the idea and start loving our body”. They gave us some examples. Some people don’t love their body because it is too small or too big, too skinny or too chubby. Others don’t love their body because it has certain sickness or unhealthy conditions.

They said when we don’t love our body, it is under war between our soul and our physical body. We have to make peace with our body. It is based on our will. If we start loving our body and keep showing our appreciation to it, our body will start functioning well for us.

While I was listening them, I thought about my fixed concept. I kept telling to myself and others about my chronic back pain. I should stop complaining about my back pain. I should love my body as is.

They suggested us to sing, send a kiss, and show appreciation to our body, very often, every day. It makes sense to me.

Instead of recognizing our body as our enemy, we treat our body as our loved one. Let’s listen to our body. Eating healthy food makes our body happy. Doing exercise regularly every day makes our body happy. We cherish and appreciate our body. We make peace with our body. Then, all is well.

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Today is my life-long friend’s birthday. We’ve been friends since I was 11 years old. We met at the camp that was held outside of my school area. Our houses were not close. It took almost one hour by train to visit each other. We started our friendship by writing a letter. Those days, both of us never thought that our friendship would last for life. It is very rare to find a life-long friend. I feel to be blessed to have her in my life. We never lived close to each other’s house. We don’t bug each other too often. We always keep a comfortable distance. From this friendship, I know true friendship can be built without living very close and meeting very often. 

When I thought about my age of 11 years old, I noticed it was a huge transitional year for me.

My grandfather, who was very close to me mentally, passed away in November 29th, at my 11 years old age.

In the same year, spring, my family adopted a puppy of Shetland sheepdog. He had lived 11 years with us as our youngest family member.

This year was my Pieces 30 degree in Sabian Symbol for my progress sun. This degree is described as The Great Stone Face. This symbol indicates of ending one big cycle.

In my life, it perfectly matches.

At my transitional year, the age of 11, I was at the sixth grade of elementary school. I had a great memory in my elementary school days. I was always surrounded by good friends. I was brave enough to speak up in front of many people. I was good at sports. I still had a spiritual gifts available. I could see energy in color. I could see spirits everywhere. I could even see dead people’s spirits everywhere. It really makes sense to me, which I was at the Pieces 30th degree, ending one big cycle.

When I thought of my first 11 years, my life was easy. I had lived these first 11 years being true myself. I was active and funny. I liked myself. And, that was why I was liked by many friends surrounded by me.

From the following year, I had entered to a new cycle, which was harder for me to go through. For the next six years at the junior high school and high school, I could not make any close and trustworthy friends at school. I did have some friends, but I knew they would not stay as my friend for long. And my intuition was right. None of them stayed longer in my life. For the following 30 years, while I went through Aries age in my progress sun, I feel like I had lived just like somebody else. I don’t feel me of these 30 years as true me.

At the age of 42, my progress sun has entered to Taurus. Now I feel like I am regaining true myself.  

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My daughter goes to school by school bus. So I walk to/from the bus stop every morning and evening with her. To me, it is very interesting to observe the difference between Americans and Japanese people.

One of my findings that I noticed is that Americans wear less than Japanese.

I am always surprised to see parents and children wear a tank top and a beach sandal in a very cold day. I cannot help looking at them twice every time I see some students wearing a beach sandal at the school class room. I have seen some people wearing a beach sandal even at the steep mountain hiking area.

My daughter’s school has the school ceremony on every quarter. I like to attend the ceremony because I can observe the difference. The ceremony is to award students for their perfect attendance or some for their good grades (all As). In America, upon receiving the award certificate, the student will show his/her happiness by expressing through their body language as well as joyful roar. Other students also participate to celebrate the student by doing the same. Their roar and whistle echo through the entire gym as if the sound would shake the building.

I am enjoying observing them to wear whatever they feel comfortable and to express their feeling freely. These are one of the examples that I admire and respect Americans.

I will continue enjoy observing the difference between America and Japan for the rest of my life. My desire is to keep having respect and admire on both culture and traditions; both has pros and cons.

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I watched the DVD of Abraham. Abraham is a group soul that Esther Hicks channels. I started watching and listening her channeling videos and audios for 9 years as of now. I love their teaching and answers to the audience.

In today’s video, what stood out for me was the question about animals.

One person asked about eating animal meat. Do we need to switch to vegetarian? Do we need to feel guilty in eating animal meat? Abraham answered that the souls of animals came to this manifestation dimension knowingly. That means they know they will be food for humans. In animal kingdom, all the living creatures belong to the ecological food chain. They all know they eat something smaller or weaker, and they are eaten by something bigger or stronger than them. If they don’t like to be eaten by human, they won’t come to this manifestation dimension. In other words, they come here, and that means they know and understand they will be eaten by humans; they will be part of energy of humans.

Other person asked what animals and pets think about receiving healing work from humans. Abraham answered that animals are annoyed by that. It made me laugh. I agree. Animals have higher energy; higher vibration than humans. They know how to keep a good balance within them. Even when they get sick, they don’t fight. They don’t scare of death, like humans do. In my opinion, animals can be healers for humans, but not vice versa. To me, the idea that humans want to heal animals is based on humans’ ego.

Another person asked about crystals. She goes to mountain and digs crystals out, and sells them in her business. Some of her customers asked if it is okay for her to dig out crystals from the mother earth. Abraham answered it is okay. To me, it sounds like if crystal stone wants to be hidden in the deep inside of mother earth, it won’t come out to let humans to dig out. It sounds to me that when you find a crystal stone, that means the crystal stone allows you to find it, you already have a permission from the crystal stone to dig out and bring it back to your house.

While listening the communication between Abraham and the audience, I kept on having one message. The message is to focus on ourselves first, instead of worrying about other things such as animals or mother earth.

I agree with this message. Before we do something to others, we first take care of ourselves. Our thoughts create the reality. I think I am finally understanding the universal logic.

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I watched the movie Wolf Children. It is a Japanese movie, and the original title is おおかみこどもの雨と雪 Ōkami Kodomo no Ame to Yuki.

It is a great movie. It is fun, cute, and romantic.

I should not write the story in details on behalf of people who is going to watch. But I want to share what I learned and experienced from this movie.

It is a love story. It is a story of a family; dad, mom, and two children; a boy and a girl.

I got very emotional when I saw the little boy was so attached to his mother when he was little. The little boy would stay with his mom all the time. He loved his mom’s gently stroking on his back with her calming voiced mantra “everything will be okay”. When the son grew up at the age of 10, he decided his way of life. Although the mom was very sad to see his son leaving, she respected her son’s decision and let him choose his way.

I could not watch this movie without tears. I thought about my son-to-be who could not be born in a physical body. I knew if he were born, we would be so attached to one another. Then, when the time has come for him to be independent and choose his way in life, I would be very sad but at the same time, I know I would respect his free will.

As a matter of fact, I already experienced it. When I was pregnant with him, although it was only for 9 to 10 weeks, I was so happy to feel him and stay with him. Then, things didn’t go well during my pregnancy and his soul needed to go back to his spirit hometown. Although I was very sad of his leaving, I could respect his will and let him go, for his highest good. I am fine with this relationship with my spirit son. Because I am just a thought away from him. I feel his existence whenever I want to communicate with him.

It can be said to other relationships as well. Staying with your significant others (such as family and friends) physically close is wonderful, but even if we are separated in physical distance, we can be connected by our thoughts. I think if we love somebody truly and unconditionally, physical distance does not matter. And we can respect the person’s free will for his/her highest good.

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Today I want to talk about sleep length. People have different opinion about sleep length. Some need eight hours while others think they can survive only four hours sleep a day. When I googled sleeping length, I found many people wrote an article about the myth of eight-hour sleep.

This is my personal understanding and belief. I believe high quality and enough length sleeping is a must for everybody.

“High quality sleep” is a sleep that we can freely go back to our spiritual homeland without any disturbance. When we have concerns or worries before sleep, our Etheric body becomes so heavy that we cannot flow back to our homeland quickly. In some cases when our etheric body is too heavy to fly, that is how we get stuck in the middle world and we cannot get rid of any tiredness even after sleeping. The middle dimension is located between physical body and our spiritual homeland. The middle dimension is where some souls who cannot go back to their spiritual homeland after their death. The reasons vary to each soul. Some due to their belief system after death, and some have so heavy obsession to something such as money or somebody.

“Enough sleep length” varies to people. In my belief, we are supposed to have eight hours sleep a day in average in our entire life.

Let me explain what I mean saying “average in our entire life.” When I was working in Japan, I had so much concerns about everything and I could not sleep well. Especially when I was working as a freelance translator, my sleep length used to be four hours a day at the maximum. Because I was working alone, and usually the deadline was tight, I was obsessed to finish my work done before the deadline. I used to whip myself to stay up late and tried to finish my work as soon as possible.

Nowadays I sleep nine to ten hours a day. I feel like my body is trying to compensate of lucking of sleep in my young days. Eventually my average sleep length in my entire life will catch up with eight-hour sleep a day.

Now I thought back to my younger days, I know “high quality sleep” and “enough sleep length” make me more productive. I can concentrate more and I have higher energy so that I can receive enough support from my family souls.

So, here is a tip for you. Whenever you get stuck for something, instead of forcing yourself lacking sleep, just surrender and go to bed. After high quality sleep and enough sleep length, you will be amazed on your high efficiency on your performance.  

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I don’t like my pictures taken. I don’t like it especially when somebody takes my picture and I don’t know what the person will do for the picture. I don’t like to be posted my picture in any kinds of SNS or tagged my picture in my Facebook without my permission.

I was like that even when I was small. I remember I didn’t like my pictures taken by the school teachers or other classmates’ parents. Whenever some strangers took pictures of us, whenever I could, I hid myself from somebody’s back. I am sure this dislike regarding photo is rooted from my past lives.

Have you ever heard that elders of Native American and Australian Aborigines don’t like their pictures to be taken? Some people say it is because they believe the photo shooting takes part of your soul. I believe that, and that is why I don’t like my pictures taken by strangers.

In this modern days, everybody takes pictures and posts the pictures without the permission from the person in the picture.

I want to share two of my personal experiences regarding the picture taken of my daughter.

First experience is a good one about people with commonsense. When she was still small (before reaching at the school age), in the library or the park, strangers came up to me and asked me if they could take pictures of my daughter (because she was so cute.) I would always reject their request with my politeness and respect. I appreciated them for asking me a permission and I asked them not to take pictures of me or my daughter. I just told them the reason as “for our safety.”

“For our safety” is the most appropriate reason. Many people don’t understand that we are all energy. We are all made by vibration. I believe that our part of energy (our part of soul) enters even in a photo.

The second experience is not a pleasant one. At the preschool, the parents received a letter from the director. The letter was to inform the graduation ceremony. Also it asked parents to let her know if any of us don’t feel comfortable to our child’s pictures taken and posted in SNS. So I visited the director, who was young maybe in her late 20s. I explained the reason why I don’t want my daughter’s picture taken and posted in SNS. Then, the director, to my surprise, started raising her voice. What she told me did not sound right. She said “This is America. We live in America. Americans do whatever they want. America is the country of freedom. I, as the director, cannot stop anybody posing their pictures in their SNS. They might have their parents or grandparents in another state. Such long distance family enjoy the pictures posted in SNS.” She suggested me not to attend the graduation ceremony.

I was furious. I wanted to raise this conversation as a complaint to her supervisor or somebody who is responsible to the preschool, but I didn’t for our safety.

The lesson that I learned from this experience is to protect myself and my family as much as possible. And, I should express my feeling about taking pictures and posting in SNS whenever I need to. I wonder what other people who have same opinions with me will do.

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